The Weight Loss Cycle

In the six years since I left Abilene the same 15-20 lbs have come and gone more times than I would like to count. This has caused me endless frustrations and, even putting this information out there in a semi-public forum, I'm not sure I am yet in a place to permanently change this. I know what I need to do to fix it - eat better, move more - but I can't get myself into the habit of doing it. I lose weight and get to a point that I am happy with and then I resume my habit of eating junk.

I do not desire to be a stick by any means but I want to be healthy. There are several health problems that I am genetically more inclined to have and maintaining a healthy weight will go a long way in preventing them. I don't know what this block is that keeps me from doing this. Disappoints me about myself.

So in an effort to self improve I am on a mission to drop this 15 pounds and keep them off. I have to exercise regularly and consistently. I have to replace sweets and sodas with water and fruits and vegetables. Once I learn some self discipline in my eating I will be able to have sweets on occasion but frankly I don't have the self control right now. Occasionally I will post about progress. In an effort to be fair to myself, since this blog is mostly intended for me to get my thoughts out of my head, I will include the good, bad, and ugly.